Yesterday, a friend I haven't seen in seven years (almost to the day), found me on Facebook. After catching up and telling her about Gabe, she reminded me that she too had a loss in her life. The two things that helped her get through it? God and time. Yes, I've heard it before. But, man did I need to hear that! It was just what the doctor ordered.
Today I have felt so light and free from my emotional burdens. Yes, we try to find the easy way out of things. I so desperately wanted to find a quick fix. But, being reminded that God and time would heal my wound was a slap in the face. And, I guess I needed to be slapped!
And then, like a whisper in my ear, I am reminded of what the Truth tells me:
Matthew 5:4: "Blessed are those who mourn, for they will be comforted."
Matthew 11:25-30: "Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light."
John 14:27: "Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid."
I can't tell you how much better I felt today. And I know that there is a direct correlation between my attitude and my connection to Christ. And I can be completely honest (I hope) and tell you that it's sometimes difficult to run to Him when my sadness is more overwhelming than anything else. Sometimes, in this grief, all I can focus on is what is tangible. And so that means that I have to get through the day, and that's about all I can deal with. And everything else gets put on the back burner. But, when I can open up enough, and become couragous enough (cause this isn't easy) to see that I need Jesus to get me through this, it actually IS easier. The burden IS lifted. It is no longer mine to carry. I really hope this is helpful for all the currently prego mommas out there. Sending my love!