Hey guys. Having a rough day so I thought I'd get on here and tell you all about triggers. They are awful. They are everywhere.
One day last week at the beach, I was having a delightful time reading my book and listening to the sounds of the ocean. I look over and see a family setting up a spot close to us. At first I think it's a Mom, a Dad, and twin boys, but upon closer inspection I realize that it's two brothers very close in age. I immediatly start to cry, trying to keep as silent as possible. I am once again reminded of what I could have, should have. All week I kept thinking about how happy and content Joel was, without a playmate at all. It just breaks my heart.
The other trigger that came unexpectedly was the expiration date on more than one grocery item I consumed at the beach. I guess sports drinks and such are good for about eight months because I saw the date March 18th, 2010 on several things. That would have been, should have been, my next due date. Ugh. It all seems like too much sometimes.