Hello friends! It is with much happiness that I report that I am doing so much better than I was at the two month point! I didn't go into detail last month, but I pretty much cried off and on for three days straight. The 21st snuck up on me and I found myself unable to cope. But, on November 21st, I handled myself beautifully, spending the day with Joel and Kyle, and later we all visited Gabriel's gravesite. Both Kyle and I felt at peace that day, and the days surrounding this anniversary. We each took turns praying to Gabe while the other one chased Joel around the cemetary. It was a good day.
Kyle was just teaching Bible Study from Philiappians chapter four last night and we discussed having the peace that Paul writes about in verse seven, "And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus." This sentence is right after the verse about giving all your worries to the Lord, that we are not to be anxoius about anything. Well, Kyle and I truly feel like we have that peace. That peace which most people cannot understand. And the only way we cannot explain it is through Jesus. We would not have this peace if we were not certain that Gabe was in Heaven right now with Jesus. We would have anxiety and worry in our hearts, wondering if we'll ever see our baby again. If we'll ever hold our baby again. But, even though we still have sad days, we fully understand that we will once again be with Gabriel. And that gives our hearts a much needed rest...