Well, I just got a call from my sweet midwife who informed me that all the test results were back. Everything is perfectly normal. Huh. Well, I am relieved that nothing is wrong. But, I guess I was kinda hoping that something wasn't right, we would fix it, and I would magically transform into a woman "with child." So, the plan for right now is to take my temperature religiously, buy some ovulation predictors, and keep track of the next few months.
I am trying very hard to "let go and let God." I know that God's timing is better than my own. I know that just because I think I want my babies close together, doesn't mean that God doesn't know that waiting a year for a baby to be born, when Joel is four, wouldn't be the best thing for me. So, I will wait. I will pray. I will give up control over this and allow God to do a good work in me. See, I'm learning! ;)