Uh. I've been feeling really crappy emotionally. Dreading getting on here to talk about it, but I know that it will help. Just wanted to say that I have not been feeling like myself. This grief has made me feel like I don't have to pretend to be happy when I'm not. I guess it's an aspect of being inside the anger stage, so I've gotta keep trying to get outta here! Just yesterday I felt like I was outside my body when being introduced to a new person, and a few hours later when someone was giving me a compliment. I know sometimes I don't have a filter, so I found myself just mumbling something, without smiling, without making eye contact. Even while it's happening it doesn't feel like me. All I can say is - yes, I recognize it. And - yes, I'm trying to be better.