I do have good news to share - I have started counseling with one of my church's female pastors and it has been quite amazing. She does Spirit-led counseling, an experience that was very new to me. It was so enlightening! Instead of feeling like she's gotta have all the answers, we both go to God in prayer and ask him to reveal truth to me. I received so much insight about specific people in my life I've been having trouble relating to. She asked me to picture a scene where we were all together, and picture Jesus there too. Where is Jesus in the room? What would He say to me? What would He want me to know about the other people in the room? Genius. It was quite an experience to hear God's voice, knowing it is not your own, knowing you are receiving truth. Together we realized how much I'm still struggling with negativity and depression. I am hoping my sessions with her will continue to shed light on my grief recovery. My goal is to feel whole again...