Hello friends. Well, I have another appt this week and it's all I can think about. It will be the first appt they will listen to the heartbeat with the doppler. It's hard in the beginning, in case you've never been prego, because you can't feel baby move yet, and your symptoms are decreasing everyday because you're moving into the (most comfortable) second trimester.
I find myself having to trust God through every second of this pregnancy. It is so easy to rely on myself to get me through these scared feelings, and that only leaves me feeling worse and googling "recurrence of Potter's Syndrome." Blah.
It's less than three percent, by the way. It's very rare to have two Potter's babies IF your child with Potter's Syndrome was a fluke. But, let's say Mom or Dad only have one kidney, but have no idea, than it is a genetic issue. So, because we have Joel, we were told Gabe's diagnosis was a fluke. But, let me tell you... It's very easy for my mind to wander and think about Joel being our fluke, our one healthy baby. It can be very hard.
Just yesterday our Pastor was talking about how unsuccessful it is to rely on self. How that leaves you feeling burnt out, exhausted, dried up. What a difference it is to rely on God as our source of life. How much easier decisions become, how much lighter our load feels, how much smaller those mountains appear. So, how are we supposed to do that?? I'll just pass on my sermon notes to you:
Pray. God will encourage and fuel us. Our prayers should be authentic, simple, sincere, and consistent.
Worship. Tell God why you love Him and how good He is. Worship is anything that makes God smile.
Confess sin. When you repent of your sins, you turn away from them and turn towards Him.
Read His word. Here is where you will find life and strength.
I hope this blesses you today. I pray that you will see that even though I've JUST been given the formula to NOT feel exhausted, that it is still a struggle and a decision I have got to make all day long - to give my life over to Him. To allow Him to carry me through this rough terrain.